So here's a very detailed version of the facts about me that I could say most of my friends wouldn't know 90% of them, as an appreciation for still acknowledging my presence. It'll be a quite a long read, so you're gonna take some time to read it all through until the end.
Back then I was given RM1 for half day, and RM3 for extra class days. One bread cost like 50 cents, so I was able to save money that way. As for dinner, I only ate sufficient amount of white rice with kicap sauce for the whole night. And we guys usually scale slower with our growth in height when we were young, and girls wouldn’t like you if you’re shorter than them.
So the daily 100 jumps and 20 sit ups before going to bed is practiced too. Slowly my school uniform feels big in size and my short pants became real loose. Got myself up to 50kg and 168cm during form1, mom was surprised how slim was I when he realized my waist size is 32 only, also being in the average height group of boys.
Part of the traits still exist in me now, as you will see me being all quiet if I’m being put into a social group or situation which I’m not comfortable with. Some people see the opposite of me though where I’m being all talkative and loud, but it’s just a mere agenda to override my shyness.
Different people see me in different way, some of them will be surprised to see me being all talkative suddenly, when I was just being all quiet like a total listener and a good boy most of the time. While those who generally see me being all loud will think I’m being emotional when I’m quiet.
But it’s not all work or serious related matters, it involves all other stuff including having fun too. I’ll be all crazy and humorous, being lame or annoying just the way I am as long as I am actually enjoying and having a good time being playful. That perhaps may explain why my friends find me crazy, and to pretend that they didn’t know who am I as their friend whenever I go all cuckoo.
My mom refers it as if I were to be found missing, that will be the best clue to identify me as her son. Most likely no one other than my family members & relatives knows this except if you happen to notice it when I’m changing whenever I go for swimming/badminton.
Complained to parents about the pain and went to see Chinese tit tar the next day, turns out my shoulder joint was dislocated. My left arm had some cracking movements by the specialist, got my arm wrapped with herbs where I smell like a Chinese medicine going to school for 3 months.
Show me any dogs and I’ll try to be friend with them! I pamper MJ so so much that I treated him like my baby boy. I think I care more about dogs than human to some extent. On the downside, it turns out to be my kryptonite. My heart cannot take it if I ever seen any dogs being harmed by anyone. Ask me to watch dog related shows like “Marley and me” or “hachiko”, you’ll see me cry like a crybaby.
Those who sat nearby me during pet behavioural studies class would notice that well. And by the way, I haven’t had the guts to watch Hachiko yet, because I heard it was way depressing than Marley and Me.
That perhaps makes me to feel very comfortable with numbers, and I like to challenge myself in solving it whenever a complicated math question comes to me. It triggers my sense of competitiveness and I feel the reward of satisfaction whenever I’m able to solve it.
This is why I held lots of emphasizing in having good foundation when we are young for us to learn something and to understand it in order to develop further interest and to excel at it. I was being very particular with my sister whenever she does not know how to do her math homework and went to seek for my help, because if she is not do not understand the basic concepts by now, she would struggle in the future when more advanced chapters are being covered which she will never be able to understand without mastering the basics.
My add math tutor actually recommended me to pursue for actuarial science since I’m good in add math, but I ended up didn’t pursue it as I choose not to put myself in suffocation as I was told it is not an easy course to excel on it. Oh and, did I mentioned that my friends do label me as human calculator in real life?
This explains why I specifically chose for the kindergarten teacher scope when I did my job analysis as the part of assignment requirement for I/O subject. Maybe one day when I’m really stabilised financially and all settled down, I’ll either apply for a kindergarten teacher position or to have my own kindergarten!
I should be getting a girlfriend around 19 to 22 years old being the latest as I prefer to stabilize the relationship with a time frame of 3 years or more just so that we could move on to next step comfortably, and to have my first child by the age of 27. I wish to see the junior version of me earlier and to see them all grown up before I’m too old to witness their wonderful journey in life.
That is my ideal plan. And what was my form teacher response? She laughed through it and deems my plans to be unrealistically possible.
My field of interest in psychology pathway is towards education. Being young parents would generally have zero knowledge in nurturing a child properly, or to have less patience or proper skills in handling children. Pursuing education psychology allows me to know how to educate my children better, giving them the positive direction to grow along with.
That may explains why my wish to become a kindergarten teacher as I would want every young kids to be given proper education and guideline in becoming a good human being, as I believe a good upbringing is all it takes to determine a person’s behaviour (in the form of trust, love and respect) in the future.
Therefore, he prefers to have noodles/or mee instead as they contain lesser carbs than rice. And that is how I fixed it into me and prefer to avoid consuming rice at all. You will see me having a typical Chinese dinner with my family with an empty plate, the dishes will be my intake for my dinner. It allows me to enjoy my meal even more given that I’m being selective in only consuming foods that give nutrition and good taste rather than plain white rice that tastes nothing but just to fill up your stomach.
My colleagues do find me weird to have such behaviour, seemingly that we Asians generally do not consider as a proper meal without rice. So sometimes I’ll just have a little bit of rice to be seen as normal. I already have this fixed mind set in my brain whereby I will feel very guilty if I were to consume huge amount of rice for meal (on some case, you just cannot deny it when they already serve it to you). It does make me very full, but I have the anxious of feeling that it’s going to make me turn fat easily.
However, usually there will be consideration in eating rice on lunch during uni/working hours just so that I won’t feel hungry in the middle of nowhere. Because, something with rice will always come with cheaper price and fulfilment of your hunger compared to steaks or noodles etc.
Usually when people were to pick for ice cream among the top 3 common flavours (vanilla, chocolate, strawberry), most of the people’s preference would be chocolate as first choice, followed by vanilla and only for strawberry to be last. It’s kind of hard to find someone having same preference on strawberry over than other two. I can’t say much about the other two of my liking, though durian seems part of the favourite for some people, or it could be the opposite where people dislike it a lot. Banana lovers are quite rare too. I think I have odd preference in fruit/flavour preference.
Our parents gave us the habit to hold a handkerchief for multiple uses, and it definitely benefit me as I really use it quite often since I’m quite sensitive to heat, causing me to easily sweat. How my mom assigns us our very own handkerchief is through different colours given to each of us. My elder brother got blue, my younger brother got red, and I got myself green. And that is how it became as my favourite colour.
Pink was the second favourite colour I’ve picked up recent years indirectly, because Facebook used to be trendy with the online game called Restaurant City. I’ve painted and designed my restaurant to be all pink in order to grab a girl’s attention which she was my crush. She was a year younger than me, and definitely being in a different group of peers from me. I didn’t know any other ways to approach her, so that totally helped me out when she dropped a comment just to say how awesome my restaurant is.
From then on it became a positive reinforcement for me to like the colour pink as a form of gaining people’s attention since it is unusual for a guy to like pink. I got myself pink phone, pink wallet and pink shoes. Then my friends gave me more pink goodies for my birthday, which completed me a full set of pink equipment.
I have to admit though as year has passed, the coolness starts to die off and I was embarrassed to carry my pink bag at times since it is very hard to match with my outfit to look decent and to not look funny. Or perhaps I’ve started to be grown up and to be more particular in picking outfits that resembles maturity. Gone are the days where I wear colourful outfits with cartoon picture t-shirt just to be all colourful and lively.
I think I easily have this mind set because that is generally how I played myself out – I say what I really mean all the time (unless occasionally where I was fooling around, what I’ve said from my mouth is totally not what I meant at all, not a single tiny bit). When I am giving to you my word, you can trust me into it for me to do all my will into delivering and making sure it kept the same of what I’ve said to you. I don’t like giving false promises to people. It represents a sense of mistrust from others towards me, which is why I hold heavily onto what I’ve ever promised to anyone.
If I were to have failed upon delivering it, you will see me to be heavily affected by it emotionally. I will see myself as a failure for not keeping up to my promise. I don’t want people to give me their full trust and believe and only to see me not being able to achieve it for whichever particular reasons whether I was faking it by not trying hard to earn it or whether I have gave my all and still not made it. I don’t really make promises to anyone, though at circumstances where I was forced to make one (giving your word to customer at workplace), and when I’ve failed, the feeling of guilt will be overwhelming me so much I can’t functioning properly for a period of time. But when I do, you can be very sure that I’ll give my very best to achieve it.
So how does this backfire to me? I expected others to trust me the same way, and at times people can easily just give fake promises just to sugar coat their way out of difficult situation, only for me to be dealt with the consequences. I took in whatever is mentioned as their promises without suspecting any hidden agenda where it may occur, sometimes so much that it seems for me to be that stupid to be so delusional. I am one who easily responds to act of kindness as I believe in helping someone with all I can whenever someone really needs one, as you never know one day you might be in the same situation as them, and you sure do hope someone could give you a helping hand when you need the most. I got scammed up to RM2000 because of that.
Not on one occasion, it happens more than once. How it happened? Stranger approached me, needed money to go this to do that, gave what I can offer to help them a little, somehow managed to be convinced their situation being urgent for cash, got persuaded to give full amount to “save” their asses at the end of the day.
Why was it so easy on me? Because I wanted to help, so much that I am able to lose what I’m not ready to lose in hoping to make someone’s day. And when it occurred to me that when I could no longer retrieve back my money that is where it all struck down upon me. It was not because of the act of greediness, as they always offered to pay me more than I’m lending them in return but I told them to just return me the same amount I’ve offered. Just as long as it will return back to me…which it never did.
Personality aside, my facial appearances do seem to be an approachable person. I seem to have the kind of face where they would know I’ll definitely help them out somehow. I have been approached by quite amount of strangers before asking me for guidance in public transports (since I’ve been travelling using it quite often nowadays), or to borrow my phone to make phone calls etc. Some would just talk to me casually inside the train, asking me questions of what am I do, where am I from and so. Those are all genuine approach without any intention of scam or harm, and I do feel good whenever I am able to help someone out.
It gives me the sense of joy whenever you are provide solutions to someone who have just approached you for help, it makes you to be reliable from their view, because they would not have approached you in the first place if they don’t see you as someone who could help them out (at least from my perspective). On other cases though, that is where I easily fell into being a victim.
My parents are extra worried of me because of my gullibility, because they know I am especially helpful to strangers or people who I barely knew and I am easily to be persuaded with whatever comes out from others’ mouth. They were worried when I told them one of my customers (she’s married) took me out for grocery shopping and dinner because she knew I was unfamiliar with the place.
They will ask me who is she, why is she doing all this to you etc. They were worried when I bought myself a nice looking watch as they might think I got scammed into buying a fake one. They will ask my brothers head to shopping malls (after I bought the watch) to survey the price just to make sure I wasn’t conned, even though I told them before that I’ve did that already before I purchase the watch.
Among all of my siblings, my parents are worried about me the most not by the reasons of me performing bad illegal acts, but by the basis of me easily fooled by the outer world. They agreed among themselves whereby among the 3 of us brothers, I will be the first one to be getting married because I will end up being “conned” by a girl to settle down as soon as possible.
Though I’m the most mature one among 3 of them in making decisions in general as they relies on me to shoulder more responsibility whenever situations required, I’m still the one they are worried the most. They don’t really show it in front of me most of the time, but I know they do. I love you daddy. I love you mommy.
All of those response are totally priceless, because it can never come from anywhere from any point of time, especially of those are truly genuine. Usually a surprise only works if it comes unexpectedly and if it occurred in a huge factor, hence I always believe a surprise has to be something unusual, the part where they will never imagine or to see it coming is where you truly beat down their this form of wall from triggering their genuine happiness.
People who been around with me would know I have managed to plan quite amount of celebration events, which most of them are hidden from the targeted individual/group. I like to make it big, involving as many people as I can, disregarding the cost investment for making it happen. I don’t mind spending big chunk of cash if it’s a vital for making the surprise to be a total success.
I always go all out in planning surprises, sometimes to the extent my co-planners are confused/annoyed with how demanding I want every single bit of the event to be planned as it will happen. Usually it involves giving surprise to someone who are really close to me which I just feel like working my ass off just to make their day, or sometimes it could be just a thankful approach to people I appreciate of (e.g. I burned my lunch time, dragged some of my poor coursemate in getting down to business with me through obtaining helium balloons, came in late for class, created havoc at Psych department office during Teacher’s day on my second year).
Lots of effort definitely, but the outcome when it worked out accordingly is always good. The part where you get to see the surprise “victim” is very happy because you just made his/her day, and the part where I feel happy myself inside because I managed to pull off the plan as what I wanted accordingly. I like picturing how the surprise would be like and how it would turn out in the end, making sure that the surprise will always be a success factor. If it’s not good enough? Add more spices and materials to make it even more dramatic to enhance the surprise factor. I like to see people around me to be happy, as I believe happy is the way of fulfilling life. We are always surrounded with all other negative vibes that it is rare for one to be happy most of the time.
That is why I believe a surprise is generally the best option of all to make someone happy, because it is one of those task which requires lots of effort which not everyone is willing to do so, because a surprise happens once in a blue moon to anyone, because a surprise is usually given out by the one who those are very close to you, which not everyone has that someone to be determined to give you that. We always complain about how a minor bad event in an average day has been ruining our day, and most of us barely have any significant event throughout our life that you will always remember upon your whole life.
I try to give surprise as many friends as I can, because I like to see people around me to genuinely smile and feel happy. I just want to make their day, to make them have memorable moments in any part of their life. They will always to eventually smile genuinely each time they happen to look back into it. That is what I want to do, to “haunt” them these moments which will lingers with them their whole life, pairing with a wide genuine smile and a full load of joy.
How extreme with my surprise planning depends on my mood though, as sometimes my brain can become creative with all crazy ideas to make it bombastic, while certain times it may be my off day when I can never picture any good ways to give a good surprises. At one point I do thought of venturing into event management field because I like planning on celebration events for other people.
I just love the celebration environment where everyone is happy for the same purpose. Always nice to see a bunch of happy people hanging around with you and enjoying their time the same reason as you do.
Sometimes my friends see me as a cheapskate since I’m going out for meals/supper and I’m not ordering any drinks since I have my water bottle with me already. Of course that definitely helped me in saving money especially at times where my pocket money is quite limited from what my parents gave me. It all begins back when I was in primary school, my parents always want us to drink lots of water just so that we would not fall a sick easily. So that is definitely one of the way to gain my parents compliment, also I was different from other kids where I do not hate drinking water.
I used to drink lots of water whenever I’m on diet (I was very fat back then) in order to prevent myself from feeling hungry, only to result in liquidity constipation. Another story of it comes whereby I’m very addicted into playing computer games at young age. I’ll be sitting in front of the computer most of the time especially on school holidays. Sitting there like a glue, not willing to afford any moment of time to stand up to get some food to eat or to even drink water.
It ended up with my parents constantly nagging and scolding us for neglecting everything else just because of computer games. Well eating meals do not occur most of the time since the main course is only three in a day, as compared with drinking sufficient water that if we were to drink a glass of water at every hour, it will be quite troublesome to do so.
So, the genius I came up with filling up a big water bottle and to be put beside my seat. That definitely helped in preventing the nagging from my parents from not drinking water the whole day. My parents even used me as a good example to my other siblings for having a water bottle beside me to constantly drink water.
From then on it slowly became as a habit. My body is adjusted to the high frequency of water intake, and now I became a person who needs to drink lots of water. I feel dehydrated easily whenever I know there isn’t any water supply I could obtain around me. That part of not having water supply creates anxiety in my body, which creates a bodily chemical reaction that makes me to feel thirsty easily. I will drink more water than I usually would whenever I have my water bottle with me in such case. And now, I and water is bonded together.
Water is love. Water is life. I’ve tried to not bring my water bottle around that often nowadays though, because it may seem indecent/inconvenient to bring along with on certain occasions. Carrying water bottle with me all around would make me look like a small boy, which at times you don’t want to be seen as one especially if you dressed up all smart.
I’ll just leave it inside the car instead in case if there is any emergency in my state of hyper dehydration. Gotta start learning to buy plastic disposable water bottle that you could get rid of it anytime it brings you hassle.
The higher the sour level, the more enjoyable I find the food is. I think it call came from how I was given to try sour plum juice when I was young, and then to consume dried sour plum in class during standard 6 in order to stay awake especially in the afternoon extra class hours (We weren’t allow to consume food or any sweet at all, but my teacher gave the exception of dry sour plum as a way to excite our taste buds, allowing us to stay awake through the day).
And I loved it ever since, you will see me keep complimenting how awesome the food taste when it’s very sour. Best part of Chinese New Year is I get to eat the yee sang, which I love it so so much. My taste buds are weird sometimes, because on certain foods which are average on sour level I will find it to be sweet, but to others it will be too sour for their liking.
Anything that comes with sweet and sour taste will be the best combination for my liking (sweet and sour pork for example). If it’s paired with one of my favourite flavors (for example, strawberry and some may taste more sour than sweet, but it has both of it), then you will see a very happy boy as it doubles the enjoyment. I like it on dishes that are sour at the extreme level because I like to how it has the after taste effect which spikes your tongue, allowing me to play tasting with my tongue inside the mouth (like if you were to try tasting on the dish, you do the muak muak sound a few times) since the sour presence is still inside lingering that excites me.
People would give the disgusted face whenever they taste something which is too sour for them, but I will give a very satisfied and happy look that clearly show I’m enjoying with what I’m having. I don’t really like asam laksa even though asam laksa is one of the very sour dishes, as it comes with spicyness as well. That involves tomyam steamboat too. I’m one who can’t really take spicy food, preferable only at a low or average level of spicyness as I would easily sweat, my cheeks go red and to have running nose if I’m eating something that is too spicy for my liking.
That does not stop me from eating spicy food though, I just choose to eat less of them in order to maintain my calmness from my body in overreacting towards it.
I’ll be pampering my SO so much that I might zone myself out from my peers or friends in order to accommodate her demands/needs. So, a possessive SO would definitely steal my soul away!! But in all thoughts, I just want my SO to know that I’m very thankful for her in giving me chance to be with her, and for that I’ll return her with unlimited of pampering, love, and caring, and everything little things that she ever wants me from doing it.
If you would give me the chance, I won’t take that chance for granted as I see it as you put your trust on me, and I aint gonna ever take it for granted. So be prepared to be filled with full of lovey doveyness, because I just like to make you blushingly smile every single day when you are too overwhelmed by it. I’ll have lots of creative ideas just to trap you in the bubbliness of my love.
I don’t mind learning to do house chores or to learn cooking just to help my SO out if she feels like not doing it at all. I hope the day where I have my own family, whenever I come back home from work, I would help my SO out with her chores and any errands just to ease her burden. Because I will treat her like a princess, or a queen if she has already settled down with me.
I will always remember myself to always shower my SO with full of love because she has chosen to be with you and I should be grateful for her to decide to go along the path with me. If she ever feels that she’s have any trouble, do not worry a little at all because I’ll always have it covered.
Though I never had the chance to unleash my full potential in regards of this still, my friends can see me being as what I’ve described myself as, as I ever quoted evidently to my friend that I will “sek sei lei” in Cantonese, referring that I’ll pamper her till she feels like dying (literally direct translation).
My friend was disgusted with the way I describe how I’ll pamper my future SO because it was too overwhelming in the description of how much effort I’ll put in it, but I guess that is how they see it will be something true eventually if I come by the chance to show it one day.
