To Karl Huzairy

Hey Karl!! Uncle Daniel here. How are you doing? How’s life? How’s school? Hope all is well and good on your side. There’s a few things that I feel like telling you and letting you know. It’s going to feel a little bit strange for you for now, but you’ll understand what it was all about as time passes in the future.

Let me warm up a little before I start yeah, because I am not too used with this haha. So, are you still playing your computer games quite often? How is your minecraft? Did you get to have more time playing with your friends together? Or still by yourself? Sorry that uncle never managed to have my own account registered and to play with you side by side. Uncle don’t really fancy minecraft kind of games, prefer those that are serious. Uncle plays mainly on Dota2, Hearthstone and Counter Strike. You’ll get to know those games real soon.

Try to reduce your time in playing computer games as you grow older okay? It will be hard at first, but try to cut it down step by step, slowly reducing an hour play time per month to a healthy hours scale. Spend more time on learning other things; there are plenty of them for you to experience life. It’s okay if you are not good at it, as long as you tried exploring new things and gain a little bit of insight here and there. As much as we would like to be good at everything we wish to do, sometimes we are just not fated to be good on certain particular things. So don’t make a big fuss about it, appreciate every step you have taken on something new to you as an explorative motive. That is how you slowly find the main strengths of yours, what you really enjoy and being good at it. Uncle used to be like you, spent most of the time facing in front of the monitor playing computer games to some point neglecting lots of other opportunities that came upon in life that can never be retrieved back again when you grew past it.

School years are the best part of your whole life, trust uncle to it. You get to learn while playing without worrying much about anything else, other than your examination marks of course. But Uncle knows that you are a very smart boy, so I’m sure you’ll do very well in your studies. Keep it up the good performance alright? That would be the best gift you could ever provide to your parents: being obedient and well mannered. Be wary on the friends you mixed with throughout the years in your school life. Make sure they are the ones you could rely on, and accept you for who you are. Uncle knows that you are very well fed and healthy, but your peers may perceive it in the other way. They might make fun of your weight, calling you fat and being less willing to accept you for not being as cool as the rest. Don’t worry so much about it, outer image is only temporary. As you grow older and when puberty comes, you’ll naturally grow taller and sharp.

Some may be naïve to judge you by outer looks, but keep this in your mind that a good inner heart is what it matters the most. Uncle knows that you have a very good and kind heart, you care for others a lot especially on those who are close to you. You are very protective and loving especially towards your sister and aunty Zita, you made sure they are not given any chance to be harmed by anyone else. Uncle salutes you to be able to think very maturely for such young age, as compared to uncle back then who only knows how to think of himself more than others. Be careful that some people in your life would take you for granted knowing that you are very kind, they might cheat on you, or make a fool out of you. Do not give up, or to change your mind set just because of some of these silly people. These situations are somewhat inevitable to everyone in life, and what it makes us to learn about lessons in life. Always believe that people will eventually return the same favour to you based on what you have given to them. Don’t expect highly on that, but give it generously as your way in achieving happiness in life. As long as you know yourself that you are not committing any sins and to be consistently doing right things, there is nothing much to worry about in life on people getting back to you.

Karl, as you grow older and when hormone strikes, you will start to develop interest on the opposite gender. It may happen as early as the year of 10, but general idea comes the age of 12 to 13 as that is usually when boys hit their puberty. You used to feel disgusted on being closed to a girl or on the way they behave. It will be the opposite as you grow older; you will find some girls to be cute on how they react, or to find them beautiful on the way they look. Now here’s the thing, girls by then will usually prefer on guys who look really cool or handsome. They would love guys who are daring and confident on themselves. So if you are not in any category by then, do not worry!! This feeling will be something very new to you which it definitely would make you to be very shy about it. You don’t know what to do, how to tackle it, how to approach a girl, how to let a girl know that you have feelings for her. It is common to feel it that way, so don’t feel bad on yourself if you are not as good as your friends or other guys who are very good in engaging with girls. There is no proper way to learn or go about it, take steps by steps on the trial and error to slowly learn little bit things here and there. Also, relationships formed will just be puppy love for most of them at such age, meaning to say it usually would not last that long since most of you would be in the explorative state, not knowing the real meaning to love and care for someone.

Uncle believes that you are the one who are very true to a person in the way you feel and treat to them, so do not fret. Take your time in discovering and finding the right person as your significant other. Do not feel pressured to rush into relationship with someone if she is not the right person, just because of peer pressure. It takes uncle 22 years only to be in his first relationship, so you have lots of time to find the right one. I’m sure you can definitely do better than uncle. If you did managed to found the one, make sure to always treat her right, give her the care and attention that she needs. Never once make her worry about you, and always to keep her happy. Making sure that she maintains her smile each time she sees you will be your main goal. Be a very understanding person, and shower her all the love she deserves. You have a very kind heart, uncle believes it will be very easy for you to do that.

Don’t ever make fun of woman regardless of how they look, how old are they and how do they behave, never ever play around with her feelings. You wouldn’t like that if others did the same to your sister right? Be sure to be all truthful and sincere if you think that both of you are meant for each other. It will not be easy to find the right one, you will struggle but you will eventually get there. Just be a little bit more patient on it yeah? How guys and girls think in their mind will be different, so there will definitely be conflict in interest on circumstances. Be ready to compromise, to give and take so that you both could reach on mutual agreement, one that satisfies both parties. You would be happy if you get to see her being happy, don’t you? That’s what you need to always aim on every single day.

Karl, be more confident in life. It will help you in developing as a better person in general. Be confident that you can do what you want to do, and what is given to you. It may be very difficult at times, but do not give up. Seek emotional support if needed, your family members and friends are there to support you, watch you by your side and give you the mental strength to be a strong guy. Uncle knows that you are pretty shy person and can be quite afraid in exploring new things. You were shy in showing affection to aunty Zita each time she ask you to kiss her and hug her. You were reluctant to hug uncle too!! Uncle totally understands on the day where you did not wanted to get a new bike for yourself. You were afraid of trying to learn how to cycle, feeling afraid of failure to master in cycling technique.

Maybe you had bad experience in the past that uncle did not know, but you were just afraid and not being ready to learn to cycle. It’s okay Karl, take your time. Do not fully give up on it, just try again next time when you are more mentally prepared for it okay? Not just in learning to cycle, but every things in life that may come to you. Uncle is going to tell you a secret: Uncle doesn’t know how to cycle too!! Uncle had the same fear and response just as you. Uncle did not face it, which made it until now that uncle still doesn’t know how to cycle. Do I feel regret about it? Of course I do when I see everyone around me knows how to cycle while I don’t. I feel left out, and I feel a little bit out of place if I were to only planning to learn cycling by now.

Okay, let uncle tell you one more incident of mine. When I was about your age, my parents brought me to shopping malls and try on new jeans while waiting for movie time. They gave me the size which I usually wore but I wasn’t able to fit it in. You know what uncle did? Instead of letting my parents know that I could not fit it in and require a bigger size, I kept trying to button up the jeans but it failed, and I’ve just started crying inside the changing room. My parents were worried about me on why I cried, and we left the shop without buying the jeans at the end of the day. I was already feeling okay the moment I left the shop before entering the movie theatre. What just happened? I was feeling ashamed to let my parents know that I have grew fatter and I could not fit in the jeans size. My parents expected the jeans size given to be accurate ones, and I did not want to disappoint them in that sense where I just cried my way out of the situation. I just felt like getting out of the place to be far away from the shame that has just taken place. And everything is fine the moment I am inside the theatre room, evading from the jeans incident. So what do I get at the end? I lost the opportunity to have a new pair of jeans for myself just because I was afraid of telling my parents I can’t fit it in. And why am I bringing up this incident of mine in the past that I still remember until now? Because it is something that I am ashamed of, knowingly I would take a different step that gives a better outcome if given the second chance to rewind back. And why am I sharing you this incident of mine? Because of the incident that occurred to you back in the bicycle shop reminds me of myself. That is why uncle did not even try to force or convince you in getting your own bicycle, and accompanied you back to aunty Zita’s car to get you out of the situation. Uncle totally understands what you were going through.

Karl, I’m sorry if any of these may sounds weird to you. Some may not make sense to you as it may seem to be difficult for you to understand at young age, but I hope it would help you in the future of any circumstances that may come to you. The thing is, I really see myself in you. Uncle used to be very fat when I’m young. I am very soft hearted. I can never win in any fights or arguments with my classmates or friends or family members because I will end up crying halfway through the fight/argument. People made fun of my weight, and my name, and everything. Uncle had crushes on girls during school time but got teased and laughed by friends when they found out who am I crushing for. They gave me the doubt of me being with my crush given that uncle used to wears nerdy glasses, being very fat and not being seen as cool but all shy and awkward. Uncle plays lots of computer games back then, neglecting everything else. Uncle have been cheated by strangers a few times before with the thought of helping them, only to be scammed with the overwhelm thought of helping others more than I could afford of. I have a younger sister which I am much closed and care a lot about her too, being all protective and making sure she is developing all well and good.

Uncle hopes to see you develop well in being a good person. Lots of lots of things in the way you’ve behaved reminds of myself, all your interests and the things you do, except that you are way smarter than me, haha. I am only good in math subjects. Uncle wants to make sure that you are told and given what you are needed at that point of time where I never had the chance back then. I’m still very shy towards you to be honest, like how you are too haha. I don’t really show any affection to you like how aunty Zita did but I just want to let you know that Karl, even though I do not know you for long, I care a lot about you and I love you like my own brother or son.

Let your family members know that you love them just as much as they love you. Treasure your parents for nurturing and providing you to be who you are now, don’t ever leave any of your beloved ones any negative feelings before they go to bed. Hug and kiss them, tell them I love you before you go to bed. Alright Karl? Here’s a fist bump to you *pow* rock on your world and amaze everyone else on what you are capable of.




Love,



Uncle Daniel

I wish to avoid the inevitable

I wish you could talk to me, trust on me and telling me how do you actually without worrying about me judging you at all.

I wish i could be the one who kiss your forehead every morning when you're awake and every night before you go to sleep

I wish i could be the one by your side all the time going through all the ups and downs, knowing that it wont tear us apart but to make us stronger

I wish you could tell me why, to let me know what and how did this ended up happened to this way.

With all my heart in you, this is the worst expected outcome for it to end this way. I wished you wouldnt hide anything for me as you believe i am part of you to be known of every little things without fear.

I wish all the little things ive done to you does the very least significance of matter towards your life. I wish i was held to be more important aspect in your life than anything else.

I wish you could be the one i hold my hand with every single day till we grow white hairs and to face health difficulties, though as it is not to be feared of when we have one another to be rely on.

I wish i could be always being firmly and proudly to hold your hand and travel everywhere we may be going, places that you wish to go and you love to go, places that is tough and yet inevitable. I wish to see us grow old together being all happy and fortunate to have one another.

I wish, to have known you again right back where we started just to have more chances to spend time with you again.

I wish i was brave enough to learn to let you go without feeling sad at all. It was and it is still one of the hardest thing for me to overcome this whole while. I was never ever prepared to lose you at any single bit.

I wish i could have executed all the plans i have prepared to let you know how much i love you and for you to deserve all the love you get from me. I'm now all left with half done tasks that are left wandering and to always remind me on how I've failed upon delivering it each time i sees it

I miss you a lot. I love you. I have to let you go because i am no longer matter in part of your plans. You may have looked into other aspects which are more vital to you. Your family, your work, and maybe a better guy that suits your requirements. If you could not meet my expectations, the very least i could do is to help on meeting yours.

If we ever meet again, i wish you could tell me how grateful you were to be able to know me and have me on your side for once. If there is one wish to be granted to me, i wish to have you as my partner by my side for the rest of my life. I may switch targets easily, but i do not easily fall in love into someone else, and it will be hard for me to fall out of love from it. I will do whatever it takes to fulfill my granted wish, even if it takes me to shorten my lifespan and to deem me as disable as the expenses. I just want you to be with me, and don't ever let me go. What would it takes for me to make you feel my love?

Arguments are not supposed to be about tearing down the one you're supposed to love, but acting as the foundation to build up strong relationship, understanding and trust with each other..

Good luck in the future, i wish you all the best. Stay healthy and well, my dear Rina Kasmin.